Thoughts Of A Christian With Depression (My Transparent Experience To Victory)
It is a blessed opportunity to share about the depression I experienced. The Lord has taught me that I need to pray about every detail of my life because only HE is truly responsible for the Christian fruit in my life. What I share now, I pray only Jesus she is it threw me so only he can minister to the readers.
Depression is such a very sensitive area and one really needs to experience it to truly understand it. Yet, I believe it is an unnecessary cross that too many believers bear. I know from first hand experience the depths of a broken, wounded heart.
Basically, I was depressed most of my life. I was not exposed too much risk growing up. My personal character never developed and I was clearly not ready for adulthood when the time came. Once I was on my own the hidden depression symptoms came out. (They were hidden because I had hidden them from my parents.). I was not ready for adulthood. Before I knew what happened, I was a mental “basket case”. I shook whenever stress or conflict arose. Nonstop tears began appearing each day. I cried myself to sleep every night. What a shock to the reality of life! I know many of you reading this can easily connect with my experiences.
This all occurred during 1978 – 79. After a few months of this type of depression, fortunately, the Lord entered my life. I became born again. I truly learned what unconditional love meant.
I grew more in love with the Lord over the next few years, not realizing though, that I was still hiding and denying my deep hurts and depression. I married in 1982 adopted two children in the late 1980s. However I was the hiding the depression and, in fact, was not even aware I had it.
Fortunately, we have a loving Savior Who always holds on to us. We, with depression, know that we really never totally hold on to Jesus. When Jesus reclaims His inheritance (us), He uproots all garbage out of us.
There were many problems I encountered during this time. Sadly it affected my family. My two children with denied a childhood during these years. Without going into specifics, I can say 1993 was the most depressing year I had ever experienced. The deepest part of my heart just overwhelmed me. Despite knowing the Word of God and being involved with ministry, depression symptoms from earlier in my life came to the surface again and overwhelmed me. Daily tears tears and shaking were common. Fear of just about anything was easily seen. I can only say the grace of God made it somehow last for me.
Those of you depressed can easily easily relate about going off the deep end. For someone like me who was not ready for adulthood, I sure received a crash course. But, God had the whole thing planned. God attempted to get my attention many times, but I missed Him. So He let my entire life / family collapse. Now I had no excuse for missing Him.
Got started showing me, right in the middle of this depression, that I misunderstood what salvation means. I thought salvation was just “Jesus died for my sins”. The Lord showed me this is only 1/2 the gospel. His death didn’t save me. His death took care of the sin issue. I was spiritually dead, and spiritually dead person needs spiritual life. And the only one who had this life was Jesus. His life in me saved me. Romans 5:10 ” For if, when we were enemies, we were reconciled to God by the death of His Son, much more being reconciled, we shall be saved by His life.”
Jesus also frequently (in the Gospel of John) speaks about life. Therefore, I learned I was saved, but I WAS STILL LIVING LIKE I WAS DEAD. No wonder I really had severe depression as a believer.
Today, I can confidently say that this is where many believers with depression miss it. IT IS CHRIST IN US – NOW – THAT IS OUR VICTORY. We are to train our minds as Paul lived in Galatians 2:20 “I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of
God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.”
That was it! I have a new life Who is Christ. Therefore,
1. I want to see my depression as dead on the cross.
2. I am, literally a new creature in Christ.
The victory over depression is not to change our emotions. It is to change out thoughts, because emotions ALWAYS follow what we think. We need to meditate our minds on the truth of God’s Word and, as Jesus stated, it will set us free.
I assure you that I have NO depression for the last 19 years. It I just now view life definitely as a new life in Christ. It is now a total joy being a Christian. God’s love is so deeply rooted in me that rivers of living water will naturally just flow out.
Now the Lord has prepared me to lead VOD Ministries – Victory Over Depression. VOD is to share, encourage, and support hurting and depressed people. I am totally dependent on God and His Word. His compassion is very strong in me for hurting people. I only offer love Jesus to depressed people I now only offer Jesus in you. Jesus is the only answer. He is your new life. No job is ever too big for Him.
I love pur Lord so dearly. He really is alive. His only interest is the deep, intimate love He has for each one of us. As this intimate love grows., He then is so beautifully glorified once like-minded believers come together.
This is VICTORY OVER DEPRESSION (VOD). I am living proof from 19 severe years of depression. Many problems still exists to cause me to retreat into depression, but I view life differently now from God’s eyes, and not the world’s. So I have no desire to retreat into depression, even though it is still a struggle.
Victory over depression (especially severe depression) takes time. Be gentle with yourself. Begin by training your mind to only see CHRIST IN YOU, Christ as your new life. Once you start this, God doesn’t sit passively by. He moves in quickly.
Victory Over Depression – VOD Ministries
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– by Robert Bennett –