Victory Over Struggles & Burn Out
For many years I struggled to overcome many areas of my Christian walk. One of them was severe, clinical depression. If Jesus died for my sins, why was I struggling for many years as a depressed Christian? Even answering many altar calls, repenting daily, and rebuking Satan, I still struggled with depression. The depression symptoms consisted of a daily fear and insecurity, continuous tears crying myself to sleep, and avoidance of any type of stress or conflict.
How can you relate to what I experienced? The Christian life for many can easily be a life of drudgery, burn out, and failure. Instead, the Christian life should be a life of joy, abundance, and victory.
Why do so many Christians struggle in their Christian walk? Why do so many burn out and walk away? The answer, which I can testify personally to, is that they do not, for whatever reason, let Jesus live His life through them. Many Christians simply do not know how to let Jesus live through them. Many, in fact, rarely understand it at all. Many do not know how to “rest in Jesus.”
I lived like the following mindset. If Jesus came to give me abundant life, why did I continue to live depressed, disappointed, and lifeless? That was the question I repeatedly asked myself.
Basically, I was born again into a new life in Christ, but I was living as though I was spiritually dead. I tried to live the Christian life on my own. No wonder my life was full of death and depression. I did not know how to let Jesus live His life through me. I did not know how to really “rest in Jesus.” When Jesus died, my depression died with Him. It was buried with Him in His tomb. When Jesus rose from the dead, He left my depression dead and buried forever.
God was viewing my depression as dead. He needed to train me (to renew my mind) to see it as dead also. As long as I continued to focus on my “dead” depression, I actually was making it come “alive” in my mind. No wonder my Christian life was failing. No wonder depression overwhelmed me. I was looking at “dead” things that God was not looking at. God cannot lead one to victory who continues to focus on “dead” things. A “dead” corpse does not need help. A “dead” corpse needs life – God’s life in it. I was looking at “dead” things that God was not looking at. God looks at life, specifically His life in Jesus. When God sees His born again child, He sees His Son Jesus.
I had now begun to realize that the resurrected life of Jesus in me was to be my total victory. I needed to learn how to apply “Jesus in me” by faith into my daily life. I was learning to “rest in Jesus.” One thing about the Christian life is that God has made it simple: Everything is summed up and fulfilled in Jesus. As I continued to focus on “Jesus in me” as my solution, it would only be natural to expect victory over depression. It would take time because Jesus needed to deal gently with the deep pains in my heart. I was now crucifying daily the “dead” parts of my life so the life of Christ could grow in me more. It would take time and be very painful. However, that is what crucifixion causes – death. The reward comes afterwards in the joyful experience of the resurrected life of Jesus alive in me.