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Thoughts Of A Christian (ME) With Depression

It is a blessed opportunity to share about the depression I experienced.  The Lord has taught me that I need to pray about every detail of my life because only He is truly responsible for the Christian fruit in my life.  What I share now I pray only Christ shares it through me so only HE can minister to the readers.

Depression is such a very sensitive area that one really needs to experience it to truly understand it.  Yet, I believe it is an unnecessary cross that too many believers bear.  I know from first-hand experience the depths of a broken, wounded heart.  Basically, I was depressed most of my life.  I was not exposed me to much risk growing up.  My personal character never developed and I was clearly not ready for adulthood when the time came.  Once I was on my own the hidden depression symptoms came out.  (They were hidden because I had hidden them from my parents.)  I was not ready for adulthood.  Before I knew what happened, I was a “basket case.”  I shook whenever stress or conflict arose.  Nonstop tears began appearing every day.  I cried myself to sleep every night.  What a shock to the reality of life!  I know many of you reading this can very easily relate.

This all occurred during 1978-79.  After a few months of this type of depression, fortunately, the Lord entered my life.  I became born again.  I truly learned what unconditional love meant.

I grew more in love with the Lord over the next few years, not realizing, though, that I was still hiding/denying my deep hurts and depression.  I married in 1982 and adopted two children in the late 1980’s.  However, I was hiding the depression and, in fact, was not even aware I had it.

Fortunately, we have a loving Savior who always holds onto us.  We know as depressed people that we really never hold onto Jesus.  When Jesus reclaims His inheritance (us), He uproots all garbage out of us.

There wew more problems I encountered during this time.  Sadly it affected m family.  My two children were denied a childhood during these years.  Without going into specifics, I can say 1993 was most depressed year I had ever experienced.  The deepest hurt of my heart just overwhelmed me.  Despite knowing the Word of God and being involved with ministry, depression symptoms from earlier in my life came to the surface again and overwhelmed me.  Daily tears and shaking was common.  Fear of just about anything was easily seen.  I can only say the grace of God made it somehow last for me.

Those of you depressed can easily relate about going off the deep end.  For someone like me who was not ready for adulthood, I sure received a crash course.  But, God had this whole thing planned.  He attempted to get my attention many times, but I missed Him.  So He let my entire life/family collapse.  Now I had no excuse for missing Him.


 He started showing me right in the middle of this time that I misunderstood what salvation means.  I thought that salvation was just “Jesus died for my sins.”  The Lord showed me that is only ½ the gospel.  His death didn’t save me.  His death took care of the sin issue.  I was still spiritually dead, and a spiritually dead person needs spiritual life.  And the only one who had this life was Christ.  His life in me saved me.  Romans 5:10 amplifies this very well.  Romans 5:10 “For if, when we were enemies, we were reconciled to God by the death of His Son, much more, being reconciled, we shall be saved by His life.”  Jesus also frequently (in the gospel of John) speaks about life.  Therefore, I learned I was saved, but I WAS STILL LIVING LIKE I WAS DEAD.  No wonder I really had severe depression as a believer.

I today can confidently say that this is where many depressed believers miss it.  IT IS CHRIST IN US – NOW – THAT IS OUR VICTORY.  We are to train our minds as Paul lived in Galatians 2:20 “I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave Himself for me.”

That was it!  I have a new life who is Christ.  Therefore,

1.      I want to see my depression as dead on the cross.

2.      I am, literally, a new creature in Christ.

The victory over depression is not to change our emotions.  It is to change our thoughts, because emotions ALWAYS follow what we think.  We need to meditate our minds on the truth of God’s Word and it will set us free, as Jesus stated.

I assure you that I have NO depression for the last 16 years.  I just now view life differently as a new life in Christ.  It is now a joy totally being a Christian.  God’s love is so deeply rooted in me that rivers of living water do naturally flow out, as Jesus said.

Now the Lord has prepared me (in a ministry I can say) to share, encourage, and support hurting and depressed Christians.  I am totally dependent on Him and His Word.  His compassion is very strong in me for hurting brethren.  I only offer my brethren Him.  He is the only answer.  He is your New Life.  No job is ever too big for Him.

I love our Lord so dearly.  He really is alive.  His only interest is the deep, intimate love He has for each one of us.  As that intimate love grows, He then is so beautifully glorified when like-minded believers come together.

 THERE IS VICTORY OVER DEPRESSION.  I am living proof from seventeen severe years.  Many problems still exist to cause me to retreat into depression, but I view life differently now from God’s eyes and not the world’s.  So I have no desire to retreat, even though it still is a struggle.

Victory over depression (especially severe depression) takes time.  Be gentle with yourself.  Begin by training your mind to only see Christ in you, Christ as your new life.  Once you start this, He doesn’t sit passively by.  He moves in.


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6 thoughts on “Thoughts Of A Christian (ME) With Depression

  1. Yvonne Soliz on said:

    I just wanted to ask did you suffer with high anxiety, sleeplessness and unable to eat? I am a Christian and preached/teach the word. Had two bouts with depression, came out experienced joy again and now I am in the 3rd bout. Can you help? comment

  2. Thank you for these words. I am always surfing the net looking for stories of recovered Christians because this has been a lifelong battle for me and I don’t know if I will ever be completely healed. I hope one day the Lord does for me what he did for you and thank you for understanding and having the courage to serve others in this way.

  3. Hi, Yvonne. Glad we have been discussing this in FB private message.
    The Holy Spirit can definitely help and give you the victory. Amen.
    For anyone else who needs assistance, let the truth of these blogs bring Christ In You into the midst of your everyday life. CHRIST IN YOU is your victory.
    Feel free to join me on Facebook at!/VictoryOverDepression

  4. Friend, it is the Lord doing the healing. It is Jesus in us who is the victory. He will do the same for you. Jesus shows no favoritism. Please connect with me on FB. I can help as the Lord leads. God bless.

  5. Dear One,
    I suffered from clinical depression for many years due to the location of my brain tumor. I understand the pain and hopelessness that depression causes. Thankfully, I am much better now that they removed the tumor. I still fall into moments of depression as the road to recovery is long and hard.

    I have posted your blog on my blog
    I’ve mentioned your positive perspective on Christ helping you through this horrible tendency. I list you as one of my Ligo Circle of Appreciation blogs.

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