April 1, 1979 – April Fool’s Day – My Best Day Ever
April 1, 1979 – 32 years ago today I gave my life to Jesus Christ as my personal Lord & Savior. I accepted Jesus’ death on my behalf for all my sins. I accepted His Resurrection to conquer death. I accepted His invitation for eternal life. Jesus accepted my invitation to come take up residence in me 32 years ago. I confidently say “It was the greatest decision I ever made.”
I was 22 at the time, about to graduate college, and was in the deepest depression of my life. I did not understand how seriously depressed I was. I was an insecure adolescence in an adult body. I was getting a crash course in life. My normal experience at the time was one of daily tears and nervous shaking whenever conflict or stress arose. I was a people-pleaser and easily gave in to be accepted. I was quite a basket case. (Other blogs I have posted on this site give a more descriptive experience of the depression.)
So as the day of April 1, 1979 came around, I kept trying anything to make sense out of life, to have my broken heart healed. (Can you relate?) I was so desperate and how I wish some people really understood the deep pain my heart was experiencing. No help came. I almost reached the point of considering suicide.
Fortunately, I came to realize to give God a try. God got my attention and was knocking on my heart’s door. I knew about God growing up, but never considered what a relationship is. I asked God that if really showed Himself to me and helped me, I was be glad to change my life and give it all to Him.
God honored my prayer. The next day I was on Cloud 9. Nothing bothered me anymore. It was the deepest, personal experience of love in my heart I ever had. It made me look above all my problems & insecurities because I now knew Jesus lived in me. This experience stayed with me for a few months. It was a deep burning passion every day. It lasted this long because God knew I needed this long. I was all by myself. I had no friends to share this with. It was just God and me. I knew I had become born again.
April 1, 1979 was April Fool on the devil. Amen!!!!!
It took many years for me to understand what a Christian needed to be. I still needed the deep depths of my broken heart healed. That’s why the depression persisted for another 17 years, despite knowing the Scripture so well. It was not until I really applied by faith daily the reality of CHRIST IN ME that the healing began. (I have added many blogs sharing this freedom and reality up to where I am today.)
Now I only let Jesus live through me. I pray that people see me they see JESUS IN ME.
JESUS IN ME is my victory. 32 years later I rejoice in the greatest choice I ever made. CHRIST IN ME lives through me. (May you also choose wisely.)